Have you ever had one of those days? The kind where you have more to do than time to do it all in. You use your time wisely, you get a lot accomplished, but the list doesn’t get shorter. Actually, you wonder if it’s getting tips from the rabbits under the woodpile.
That was me today.
I needed to hit the grocery store and do laundry. I needed to go through all the email messages I have been putting off the last few days. I needed to write a blog post for my daily challenge. I needed to, I needed to, I needed to…
By the time dinner rolled around I was exhausted. Burned out. And I was frustrated that my blog post wasn’t coming together. Everything I wrote stunk! It had no depth, no meaning, no flow—nothing. Which of course started the merry-go-round of insecurity and doubt.
And I started to feel stressed. Anxious. And irritable.
Finally I put my foot down and cried out, “What’s wrong with me? God why am I feeling this way?”
“Hey, Baby, you did show up today! How are you doing? I haven’t talked to you all day.”
Oh. He’s right. I haven’t talked to Him all day, have I? How did that happen?
When I looked back at my day, I realized I didn’t even tell Him good morning. I just got out of bed and started my day and then kept on with my day…running on empty…running on fumes.
I let my pride get the best of me: “Oh, I got this. No problem. It will be easy. Piece of cake.”
Then I read Romans 8:6:
“So letting your sinful nature control your mind leads to death. But letting the Spirit control your mind leads to life and peace.”
I didn’t ask the Spirit to fill me today, nor did I ask Him to control my mind; which means I let my sinful nature take the lead. And I didn’t even slow down long enough to think about where I was being lead until I was miserable. I allowed a fabulous day to be less than stellar and I allowed my vitality and peace to be stifled and taken away.
Beloved, I share this, because when you spend time daily with God, it’s easy to tell when you don’t. It shows up immediately. I pray I continue to stay sensitive to that, and more diligent about spending quality time in His word during this busy season in my life.
I learned a hard lesson today: When life gets crazy and feels like it’s coming off the rails, that is NOT the time to forget, pass over, or ignore spending time with Jesus. That is the time you need it most.