Today was one of those days that didn’t got the way I planned. Ever have one of those? I should be used to this by now. I should. But I’m not.
Some days I wake up with my day all planned out. Then circumstances come up and take me in a completely different direction. Other days, I have everything aligned, scheduled, and laid out. Then God shuts down my plans to either open my heart and eyes to the people around me or to make me aware of a change in direction.
Today He needed me to slow down. To drink in the blessings He has given me. To just love and allow myself to be loved. Sometimes I am really good at the loving part I forget to accept the love offered to me. So today He opened my heart to appreciate the world and people around me. My day was full of precious friends, family, football, and my girls.
I didn’t get all the things crossed of my to do list. I didn’t get my panned #write31days post for today finished. I didn’t rotate all the laundry. And you know, I’m okay with that. Becasue today I let myself slow down. I accepted God’s simple blessings and allowed them to fill me up. Today I was blessed beyond words—my day was full is so many ways.
One of those ways was answering questions about my writing journey—particularly during the time I was wrestling with God. When He was calling me to do this, and I was telling Him He had the wrong girl. My girls wanted to know more about why I wrestled and how I knew when I was transitioning to surrender and obedience. I shared the poem with them. I wrote it at this point. It was more of a prayer, a plea—and an answer God spoke to my heart. As several of them are in this stage they encouraged me to share it as my post today.
So this is for you My precious Girls*! Remember, God’s got your back. Trust Him with your future.
Love, Mama Bear
* My Girls are my small group girls in our church youth group.
Where would you have me go?
What would you have me do?
I know you have a purpose for my life–
Lord, all I want is to honor you.
I feel like my map
is a blank, empty page
And I don’t have a compass
to help point the way.
Where do you want me to go?
Jesus, I want to follow your lead
I have no clue where I am going
so I am here on my knees.
You have been my shelter,
my fortress, my shield
But now you want me to move–
Jesus, it is only to you I yield.
Where do you want me to go?
What are you calling me to do?
My feet are willing and able
But I honestly don’t have a clue.
“Come!” you call out,
as you extend your arms open wide
“Trust me, Child, just start moving
I will be your guide.
“You don’t need to know where you’re going
just know that I’m in the lead.
“You have no need to despair
I will satisfy all your needs.
“Your faith will be made stronger
and your light will shine!
“All who see you will know
that you are mine!
“I will bless you and change you
into the likeness of me;
“Even if some things remain unknown
on this side of eternity.”
But I don’t have the resources
“I will supply all your needs.”
I don’t have the finances for them
“Ask me, I will supply all your needs.”
I don’t have the understanding or wisdom
“I do, I will supply all your needs.”
I don’t have the right degree
“Neither did I, I will supply all your needs.”
I don’t have the time
“I will supply your need.”
I am afraid–
“Take my hand and let me lead.”
“Child, my purpose will come to be pass
whether you participate or not
Either stay where you are or move–
but make the excuses stop!
“When you completely surrender
and move in obedience to me
I will bless you beyond
what you can fathom or dream
“I will use you to bless others
and glorify My Name;
I will use you to change lives
and yours, Child, will also never be the same.”
Jesus, I trust you
my confidence is in you alone
You are my shelter, my guide;
my Savior–my only hope.
Take my life, I surrender it to you,
it is yours to use as you desire.
Lord, I just have one request,
fill me with courage and your consuming fire.